Sometimes I see a situation
that is well and truly bleek as being full of opportunity.
Sometimes I see a situation
that is amazing as being bleek.
I try to see it differently.
I wish I knew how.
Sometimes I'm able to be
your friend.
Sometimes I'm able to laugh
and cry with you.
Sometimes I'm able to joke
with all my heart.
Sometimes I'm able to go out
with you and have so much fun!
Sometimes I don't know what
to say.
Sometimes I say things that
aren't nice; and I'm trapped inside my own self unable to stop myself
from speaking.
Sometimes I proverbially
beat myself up for days because I said the wrong thing.
Sometimes I can't figure out
why you're mad or sad.
Sometimes I stay quiet when
I should speak.
Sometimes I get irationally
angry. I rarely express this well.
Sometimes I think you don't
like me, even when you've given me no cause to think this.
Sometimes I look at you and
feel nothing. (I especially hate this.)
Sometimes I forget the
important things.
Sometimes I remember them,
just in time for it not to matter.
Sometimes I just feel
awkward.
Sometimes I just want to
die.
Sometimes I wonder what you
see when you look at me.
Sometimes my brain makes me
think you hate what you see.
Sometimes I wonder if you
feel the same way I feel.
Sometimes you can say
something, and I'll read way to much between the lines.
Sometimes I forget to look
between the lines at all.
Sometimes I wish I could be
more normal.
Sometimes I wish I could see
outside of me.
Sometimes I wish I were
different.
